番第一百九十九章 番外(4/4)

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可是我却想不到，我们的第二次分离已经悄然而至。

致远的爷爷找来了，他要带走致远，父亲和继母的意见一致，他们都希望致远有更美好的未来，而致远的爷爷正是位高权重的人物，致远能和他回去必然是一条捷径，而且也能为他的亲生父亲争一口气，对此，致远很矛盾，可是我知道他的迟疑就已经等于做了决定，而我只能祝福致远，送他远行。17904112

可是，如果时间可以倒流，如果人生能重新开始，我一定会，想方设法的留下他，就算是哭天抹泪，胡搅蛮缠，我也不能放他离开，我该任性的缠住他，也许我只要开口，他一定会留下的，也许我们的人生就真的会不同。

我的大学时间，一直很寂寞，没有朋友，没有闺蜜，我的生活只剩下上课、看书和等致远的电话，我不愿意回家，我不能忍受，那熟悉的房子里再没有致远的身影，再没有致远的气息，我开始不安，担心，甚至有时更会精神恍惚，我想他，非常的想他。

认识年镇海，是场意外，因为一本书，他好心的让给了我，我说了一句谢谢，我们就这么认识了，渐渐的我发觉他时常找借口接近我，我很不习惯，总是躲着他，我甚至希望他能真的做出表白的行动，我还可以决然的拒绝，可是他要潜移默化的融入我的生活，是我不能接受的，在我的认知了，男人和女人永远不可能只是单纯的朋友，我不能给他任何的希望，我的心里除了致远再也放不下任何男人。```````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````

年，柳年，这是我承诺过致远的，这证明我如水般流逝的光阴和年华，我的人生就让我最后任性一次吧，我想给我的爱情留下些东西，也许是幻觉，我只感觉到最后我真的看见了致远，看着他，他好像对我笑了，好久了，我没有看见他的笑，原来有些东西是永远也不能忘记的。

可是我却万万没有料到，我最后的任性却耽误了致远的一生，如果有来生，我只想留下他的身边，就算自私一点又怎样，此生我没有能够勇敢的面对自己的人生，来世我会努力的争取属于自己的幸福。````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````

错过的爱情，总是非常美好的。